Thursday, December 31, 2009

'09 reflections.

i think i can confidently say that 5 years ago i would have never ever guessed that i would be a photographer. and now i can't watch sports on tv or go to a friend's wedding without my eyes focusing in on the lenses being used on the cameras snapping away. when i wake up and look out the window, or as i drive to work, my thoughts go straight to what kind of lighting the sun/clouds are providing for the day. i spend time reading camera reviews, lens specs, and other photography blogs, just trying to fill my brain with everything i just might need to know in that one moment during a shoot. i leave the house with no plans and end up in a field on the side of the road just shooting at old buildings and old cars. in the past 5 years, my life has changed.

and when i think about how to describe and reflect on simply this past year, two thousand and nine, there are 2 words that come to mind. the first word is learn. and the second is practice. sometimes i learn something from someone else or from reading and then i go and practice. and lots of other times i practice and then i learn something. and so the most appropriate way for me to reflect on this year, is to share with you what i consider to be the top 5 things that i have learned.

i've learned...

5. that truly the best way to learn is to stop reading, watching, listening...and to practice on your own.

4. (very quickly) that i am awful with finances. i don't understand spreadsheets, taxes, etc. and i desperately need other people to help me with these things. i also never remember to keep up with all that i'm supposed to keep up with. mileage, bank statements, invoices, etc. that stuff is just not for me. but i'm practicing. :)

3. the uncontainable joy that comes from shooting a family with young children. i love that they are so unpredictable. and i love that one child can show so many different expressions on their face. it is precious.

2. that the best learning comes from failure. i think i have experienced this with teaching, but it became even more real with photography. there have been plenty of times that i've been in the middle of a shoot, driven home from a shoot, laid in bed at night, edited images, and felt like i've failed. and yet in these moments, i can identify what needs to change. and it is after many failures in which success follows.

1. to be so, so grateful for the people in my life that are constantly telling me to keep going hard after photography. your encouragement is what keeps me going. thank you so much.

goodbye 2009. i'll miss all 8,760 hours of you.

1 comment:

Katie Carruth said...

ahhh i love this post! so exciting to think about what the future holds! i am so proud of you! :)